At Long Last Madeleine or Yes & No!

I have been putting this off--this being "writing on the Mildred"--because... well, I don't really know why I have been putting it off. I would think about it all the time, almost every day, i.e., I have to write on the Mildred today, and then I wouldn't do it. Probably this should be explored further at some future date or was explored sometime in the past...

ERT! I'm bored with this entry already! It is reminiscent of so many other entries!

Anyway, I got thrown off my schedule a month ago. I am still off my schedule. I went away for a week in August and then I worked a lot. They kept asking me to come in to the office because it is our busy season and I always said yes because I need the money. And so they kept asking and I kept going in, and I became more and more angry, more and more impossible to live with (ask Agnes!) and more and more dissatisfied with myself and my progress and my priorities. And then all my money went to taxes.

I decided to rededicate myself, to re-prioritize, to get things back in order, especially since I will always need the money, etc. etc, and it is always easier to choose to go into the office to make money instead of going to my studio and not necessarily making anything...

So yesterday when my boss texted me to ask if I could come in today, I felt guilty, and thought about the money, and mentioned it to Agnes, and dear Agnes, thinking, no doubt, about how difficult I have become to live with, how dissatisfied, etc. etc., said, "Tell them no!" Our Dear Reader, when called, said, "Maybe it's a test from the universe!" I said to them both, "Yes!" and then to my office, "NO!"

I have been thinking about Story #4, is it? Even I am confused... To recap: Story #1 is finished! Story #2 long, quick, unedited draft is finished! Story #3 is begun, but difficult, and needs to be completed after Story #2 is edited for reasons I can't recall at the moment, so Story #4! Yes, Story #4, that is what I am working on. Sweet, simple Story #4!

Also, as an aside, and at the risk of upsetting Our Dear Reader, I have been thinking about writing plays. I always think about writing plays at this time of year, the beginning of the season, and I love writing plays, and plus the deadlines for play-things are coming up so I should write a play, and also all the plays i see are bad it can't be so hard to write a play.

I have nothing else to say about that at the moment, but I will say that I will be back on the Mildred this week.